jd croft

why does the world keep going on and why was i created? [10/13/2025]

2025.10.13

If souls had eyes,

I would walk to the nearest mirror and see

If I could recognize what it showed.

Would I be able to say: “That’s me!”

“Why, there’s your pride! Don’t you see it? Sitting over there, right next to your overwhelming desire to succeed and accomplish. And, oh my, would you look at that! Over here we have your incessant loneliness, right alongside your longing for intimacy; a craving that we all know will never be completely fulfilled. And don’t forget the anger! If you take a step back, you’ll see that everything is sprinkled with a hearty dose of frustration with God, world, and self. From this angle, you also might notice that everything seems to be held together by your constant over-analyzing of everything. But do you see that? Right there at the center? Yeah, come a little closer. Here, at the core of who you are, we have your deepest fear: that no matter what you do, no matter how hard you try, no matter how long you search, it just won’t be enough. That you will be wrong about God and love, and that your life will be wasted…”

So where does that leave me?

Completely broken and scared?

Not at all, for I am thankful

That at least I see something there.

[flashback from archive submission 26th of March, 2017]

2025.10.13

Author: jd croft